R3P2VLCD33 – 159.5

Weight: 159.5

OK, I should be jumping for joy, I know...I crossed into the 150's!!

But I'm disappointed it's only by .5 pounds...I've been holding at 160 for 2 days, so it should have gone down more.  I haven't been as hungry the last 2 days, and didn't even eat my fruits, although not intentionally.

Too many factors to look at, and even then it doesn't matter, I can't do yesterday over.  So, I will keep focused on what I need to do and enjoy my day.

Hubby will be at the football game today and I plan to finish quilting a quilt, as well as complete a top that is ready to be put together.  Maybe even get a Costco run in there as a break.

Football tonight...will be a good break from being on my feet, and I'll work on a knitting project I've got going.

Better get off the computer if I want to get all that done!

R3P2VLCD32 – 160

Weight: 160
I am on the precipice of new numbers. They are just numbers, right?
I feel really good, and tonight I even had to force myself to eat. That NEVER happens, hcg or not!

I think my last injection will be December 10th, so I have 8 more days to lose 5 pounds. We'll see what happens.

I told my hubby that I feel different than the last time I lost weight. I had gotten down to 182 and stayed there awhile. But I also remember having a "hoping" feeling that the weight wouldn't come back. Now I know it won't come back. It's a different feeling than any time I've ever lost weight, even the first two rounds.

I just feel good, and I have a plan to keep myself on the right track.

And now, I'm going to sew….I have a deadline!

R3P2VLCD31 – 161

Weight: 161

OK, so I wish the scale would have shown me some more love, but I know it's not uncommon to start slowing down the closer to goal weight I get.  However, the way I look at it is, this is not a low weight, and I don't have to be higher.

Besides, I am really liking my new thrift store jeans!  I felt really great this morning as I was getting dressed.  I am officially in a normal weight for my body, and I can see how low of a weight would be too low (140’s) but I think the 150’s will suit me fine.

Now, because they called it a Snow Day today, I get to get off the computer and go sew!!

R3P2VLCD30 – 161

Weight: 161

Well, hey, I'm liking this! I'm just a hair away from getting into another "decade" on the scale! Woo Hoo!

I'm also liking how my body looks and feels. Certainly not perfect, but I can definitely see the end of the tunnel, and I LOVE how I feel!

I can also start imagining what my body will look like as I start to re-shape it next year, through Pilates and cardio.

On my lunch break, I visited the thrift store and found 2 pairs of jeans for $3.57 each!  One is a black pair that I can wear to work, and the other are what I would call “kid” jeans, because they are low rise and have a bell bottom…oh, I guess they are called something else these days, but the term slips my mind at the moment.  They are comfy and cute, too!

I just had to get something; I took down 4 pairs of work pants that have been hanging in the closet for the past 4 months that are too big for me; I have been alternating between 2 pairs of pants for the entire week!

Being at this weight is reinforcing what size of clothing I can buy now; the new-to-me jeans I got today are definitely a comfortable fit, not tight, so I think I’m in the correct size.  It still boggles my mind!

I spent way too much time on the computer yesterday, and late into the night, so I got up and did 30 minutes on the elliptical this morning. Felt really good to move!

I'm getting off the computer...but I'll be sewing tonight. I have a deadline looming large!

Clothing

I read a post by someone on SparkPeople who has lost weight recently, where she stated her zeal for keeping her former sized clothing.  She did so, calling herself frugal, in case she needed them again.

But more to her point, she realized she was doubting herself and her ability to stay committed to a new lifestyle, one that supported her new weight and goals.

I know how she feels.

My weight has gone up and down, ever so gradually, over the last 5 years.  It has been a cost savings to have those clothes around.

I, too, didn't mean to lie to myself, or to even need them again, it was the hoarder in me working alongside that...what?...self doubt?...lack of confidence?....proof from the past?....that reinforced the need to keep those clothes.

I think I, too, am further along in this journey, and I'm looking at those old clothes and not even liking them.  Jeans, well, I can cut them up and make a quilt with them, so I can hold onto those without guilt, or giving them a second thought, or I can give them to my hubby (yes, we have been wearing the same sized jeans, and he’s a former defensive lineman).

I do not enjoy clothes shopping, but I will have to spend the time and money soon, as I am looking at a bare closet right now as I cull out the larger sizes and outdated styles, and I am needing some clothes...ones that look good on me, and feel good!

I can, however, justify keeping a *SINGLE* pair of baggy jeans....being able to layer clothing underneath when you go out to go sledding, or to a football game!

R3P2VLCD28 – 162

Weight: 162

I weighed in a pound lighter today...woo hoo!  I even saw 161.5 come up, but with the averages,  given my multiple weighings, I decided to take the number that came up the most often...but I am encouraged, and the drop has reinforced the behaviorial choices I made yesterday, and the day before, and the day before.

As I've said in the past, it's a process of change, one that becomes a long term change...oh, that thing they call a "lifestyle".

Wow!  I am actually going to reach my goal weight!  I think I have never accomplished that before, when I've set out to lose fat and/or re-sculpt my body.

Now I have to figure out how to be the new me, in my new body, and carry on with my life as if...what?  See the previous blog post about expectations.

One thing at a time....today I am getting a quilt top made and one at least loaded on the quilt frame.  I have a deadline, and I've spent way too much time on the computer this week.

Enjoy the day!